Nerves are almost unbearable.
I have so many emotions & side effects running through me right now -- I can't describe most of them :(
My husband last night said "i want another baby but i don't want to do this" which he clarified ment "i don't want to have to do this - but WE don't have a choice..." I told him that the previous comment was kind of like a groom telling a bride as they're about to walk down the aisle that he doesn't want to.
His nerves seem to translate to anger of sorts. He seems mad that we're doing this -- instead of mad that we have to. It's hard. It's hard on everybody.
There's a high chance that we're looking at 6hr round trips to the clinic DAILY between tomorrow and tuesday. OMG. I'm starting to think I should pack up the kids and drop them off at my parents instead of having my mom come stay here (especially since the bugs are so bad they'll be housebound)
I think I will get some kind of relief tomorrow after my first scan at the clinic (not a satelite dr.) and having an egg count and sitting down with the nurses and talking. I think this will help a lot -- and I really hope it helps my dh too. It usually does. He's usually "ready to go" after we go to the clinic and i've got reservations/stresses -- it's like talking medical stuff actually pumps him up. I'm worried that he's so deflated though that it might not really do the trick this time.
omg.
also -- i've been wondering on and off if what i'm feeling from the gonal-f is normal or if it's too much -- but i keep holding on to the fact that I haven't bloated visually -- my pants still fit -- so I doubt i'm overstimulating... but i do wonder at times why my days are so difficult... I can only walk so much before it hurts and such. My u/s is soon -- i'll have answers then...
it's so different this time. soooo soo different. yet it's exactly the same. weird.
happy thoughts. happy thoughts. happy thoughts.
My husband last night said "i want another baby but i don't want to do this" which he clarified ment "i don't want to have to do this - but WE don't have a choice..." I told him that the previous comment was kind of like a groom telling a bride as they're about to walk down the aisle that he doesn't want to.
His nerves seem to translate to anger of sorts. He seems mad that we're doing this -- instead of mad that we have to. It's hard. It's hard on everybody.
There's a high chance that we're looking at 6hr round trips to the clinic DAILY between tomorrow and tuesday. OMG. I'm starting to think I should pack up the kids and drop them off at my parents instead of having my mom come stay here (especially since the bugs are so bad they'll be housebound)
I think I will get some kind of relief tomorrow after my first scan at the clinic (not a satelite dr.) and having an egg count and sitting down with the nurses and talking. I think this will help a lot -- and I really hope it helps my dh too. It usually does. He's usually "ready to go" after we go to the clinic and i've got reservations/stresses -- it's like talking medical stuff actually pumps him up. I'm worried that he's so deflated though that it might not really do the trick this time.
omg.
also -- i've been wondering on and off if what i'm feeling from the gonal-f is normal or if it's too much -- but i keep holding on to the fact that I haven't bloated visually -- my pants still fit -- so I doubt i'm overstimulating... but i do wonder at times why my days are so difficult... I can only walk so much before it hurts and such. My u/s is soon -- i'll have answers then...
it's so different this time. soooo soo different. yet it's exactly the same. weird.
happy thoughts. happy thoughts. happy thoughts.
posted by Winnifred at 2:34 PM
2 Comments:
I have an us tomorrow and the same overstim concerns. I hope it goes well for both of us.
just found your blog through another - don't feel bad at all at your comments about the gonal-F! it is VERY hard what you are going through and it's okay to acknowledge that!
Hang in there - I'm glad you have your old blog to refer to..
I don't know much about ohss, but i was deathly afraid of it, too. Drank water, elctrolytes, and protein constantly and weighted myself every single morning. I think all was okay for me, and I hope the same for you - sure is nerve-wracking!
I really hope
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