Adoption?

I know - weird topic for a woman who's currently pregnant to get excited about - but i'm excited. My dh this morning said "Maybe for our fourth we could adopt?" OMG!!! I NEVER thought i'd hear him say that... to which he follows... "I never thought i'd feel like that..." but he does! He even said maybe if our FET in 2-3 years doesn't work we could think about it then. We know adoption has heartaches as well - we're not naive... But I think avoiding the physical hell would be good. We'll see. Before I knew we'd have fertility issues I wanted to adopt... I've always wanted to adopt... So if we could adopt as well as having our own - that would be my "ideal" and I'm just so thankful that my dh finally feels like that.

Thanks to those who replied about me not feeling like I belong... I KNOW that many have written about that as well... and I know many will write about it in the future... It's just that I guess I didn't anticipate sharing those feelings - even though I should have. I seem to live way too much with the "that wont happen to me" mindset - which I can't comprehend. HOW CAN I POSSIBLY think that about ANYTHING? Infertility wasn't supposed to happen to us either... BUT IT DID.

We ended up going to the family gathering on Saturday... I found the couch and sat on it ALL day. It was "ok" although my butt was quite sore.... and I sat for more hours than I normally do and I walked a tiny bit more than i normally do (although i really didn't walk much) anyways - sure enough, woke up sunday: bleeding. Nothing "major" but way more blood than i wanted/needed to see. I should have stayed home saturday.

I bought awesome new shoes on Sat morning. I've never spent so much on a pair of SHOES... But i'm hoping they last a REALLY long time! AND i really needed comfy slip on shoes for my pregnancy... IF i don't swell too much I might be able to wear them till Oct/Nov when I give birth... I hate tying shoes on a good day - but when i'll be THAT pregnant there's just NO way i'll want to tie shoes!


Oh... and I managed to scratch a potential name off our baby name list... I really like the name Julianne, but my dh doesn't really like it. Anyways - this week-end I saw one of my cousin's and his gf - and I had forgotten that was her name. I don't really like her... so just like that - it's not even an option anymore!

We were talking about names at the party - and I said that as much as I REALLY want the names to be bilingual (french/english) it's becoming quite difficult to do so for the boys... I just can't find anything I like that's in both languages. I knew this would kind of annoy my mom but what can I do? I REALLY can't find anything - and besides, they're my babies! ANYWAYS... She said "well, look at all your ancestors you should find something..." (cause we like old names) and I said i haven't found anything... and she said "what about his grandparents?" and I said, well his grandmother has the same name as me - so that's out - but his grandfather's name is the only name we have for boys right now: James. THEN i said "and we REALLY like Seamus" to which my mom replies "I LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT NAME"... apparently earlier in the week she was just telling people she works with how much she loves that name (cause it was on a list of names that relate to her job somehow!) anyways... it was funny... So just like that, 2 very english names and I'm nearly convinced that those are our names :) (if they're boys of course!) for girls it's Catherine & Elizabeth (Cate/Cat & Ellie for short - I want to call them by their long names - but i'd rather set their nicknames instead of having kids in the class do it!)

15 weeks pregnant, and physically exhausted. I woke up this morning and felt as though I had ran all night long... my muscles are all sore... it's weird really... maybe my "self imposed somewhat bedrest" has caught up with me...