Stupid Surfing.
Today I decided I was going to be more positive. I've been SO scared of everything and frankly, it's made me feel quite negative about this whole thing :( and that wasn't my "norm"... Today I decided I was going to BELIEVE that I will be pregnant by groundhogs day. I believe. I have hope. My spirits are high...
And then I surfed. I let myself... dream of the nursery again. WHY? Now, hours later, i'm feeling incredibly sad again. I KNEW there was a reason I told myself I couldn't do that until AFTER we were pregnant. Maybe even after the first trimester... But no... why would I possibly listen to my rational self? She doesn't know what she's talking about. ARH.
Why does it hurt so bad?
And then I surfed. I let myself... dream of the nursery again. WHY? Now, hours later, i'm feeling incredibly sad again. I KNEW there was a reason I told myself I couldn't do that until AFTER we were pregnant. Maybe even after the first trimester... But no... why would I possibly listen to my rational self? She doesn't know what she's talking about. ARH.
Why does it hurt so bad?
posted by Winnifred at 3:40 PM
2 Comments:
When is Groundhog day? I thought that was just a movie.
I don't know what to say on the nursery surfing. I don't have the urge to look at baby stuff. In the very beginning, I used to think about how we would rearrange our tiny appartment.
Then we moved, and I decided not to choose a room as a nursury immediately, even though it was still early days. Boy, am I glad I didn't.
Thanks :)
Groundhogs day is Feb 2nd... i keep hoping for good news then - cause that's approx. when we'll know results :)
We have a nursery in the house right now - although right now it's a sitting room/den/library... but we know that it'll be the nursery. I used to look at baby stuff when we first started trying, and maternity stuff too... and i forced myself to stop... but it seems like my self control isn't that great these days...
thanks for the comments :)
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